Strict Women

10 01 2009

When I was younger an Egyptian friend friend told me “Zakka, whatever you do, marry a Muslim girl, because a non-Muslim one won’t tell your kids to get up off the couch and go pray!” I’ve remembered that little saying for years now and it’s even developed a desire to marry a strict girl.

There is something about strict women that is just so attractive. Women who not only speak their mind but are tough overall too. Women who can keep not only their kids but their husbands in line too. I mean, let’s face it, there are many men who need to be kept in line too – I’m one of them.

I wanted to elaborate more on this, but I just can’t find the words right now. I think I’ll pick this up later on.

zakka





Dream Girl

10 01 2009

I’ve always wondered what people mean by dream girl. I mean, as men we probably dream of thousands of different girls throughout our lifetimes, I know I do. Recently I’ve only been dreaming of one though.

But when people use the term dream girl it often applies to just one girl. Some kind of special girl? Who knows.

I think I have two dream girls right now. They might be the same girl though, so I can’t be sure.

zakka





Age & Value

31 12 2008

What has more value in this world? A girl or a woman. I was thinking about this today, it was one of the many weird things I’ve spent more than 5 minutes contemplating. I came to the conclusion that women have more value.

Not being a female myself it’s not easy to understand how a girl socially becomes a woman, but it is evident that the change is quite significant.

I suppose the same can be said for boys and men.

My cousins are all getting married these days. As soon as one is hitched the pressure moves on to the next in line. If I only look at the males, there are 2 guys before me who have to get married before I’m in the hot seat. One just got married this March and now the next is already being scratched away at. He says he’s going to wait 4 or 5 years before tying the knot with his belle, but his mom is intent on the date being much sooner.

I’ve drifted away from the initial topic but it’s weird how the girls get no pressure. How can they, right? They’re girls! They can’t just go pick a guy and get married to him, it’s more complex than that.

The young women are no doubt of more value than the young men, and they are taken care of really well when it comes to these things. A mother would be much happier complaining about her daughter-in-law than be worrying about her own daughter’s marital bliss. Ah well, now I’m rambling.

zakka





No Name

28 12 2008

What does it take to make or break a person? A moment? A year? A lifetime?
What does it mean to be made or broken?
Why is it that while you can pull covers over the eyes of some, other people can always see through you?

It’s as if certain individuals are made to know you. To know when you’re lying or telling the truth.

I’ll always remember this relevent quote by the character Robin Williams plays in “Good Will Hunting.”

I’d ask you about love, you’d probably quote me a sonnet. But you’ve never looked at a woman and been totally vulnerable. Known someone that could level you with her eyes, feeling like God put an angel on earth just for you. Who could rescue you from the depths of hell.





Pawns

25 12 2008

I am a pawn. You are a pawn. We’re all pawns.

In this world we have no arms, no legs, no muscles, and no power. We are pawns who follow the same cycle of success and failure, of joy and heartbreak, of laughter and tears. A pawn is just a pawn. It has no name, it has no face, it has nothing. A pawn is used one day and forgotten the next. Sadly, a pawn cannot see beyond its plastic coating to know what it really is and why it exists. The proverbial saying, “Life is a journey, not a destination,” is highly incorrect. If one does not know their destination, they are just a pawn.

zakka





In the Dark

25 12 2008

I feel lost and angry these days. I have a terrible old habit of bottling things up and not letting them go. I haven’t cried in years and years. I didn’t shed a tear when my brother passed away, nor when my grandfather passed. I get emotional over religious things at times but my eyes still stay dry.

I think I’ve lost something very special in my life. Everyone has their own view of what is perfect, mainly when it comes to people. You meet someone who you see as a perfect person. Someone you could listen to for days on end without turning away. Someone so unique and so exquisite that you’d think they came straight out of your dreams.

When you lose something like that you’re not even at the position you were before you met them. You feel like you’ve been thoroughly mixed into the dirt. You feel like you just fell from the top of the world and landed in a huge pile of crap.

Why people do what they do is something people can never get a grasp of. Fear, expectations, and tradition are words I have begun to despise. Why fear the truth? Why do people have to suffer so that traditions can survive? It’s ridiculous.

No doubt the other person gets hurt too, but they play along like nothing has changed for them. No one can be that dead inside, no matter who you are or where you come from. People are all the same – they all need love.

Love is such a stupid word too. Love doesn’t even exist. It’s a term given to a number of concepts like loyalty, compassion, honesty etc. so that we don’t have to say all those things to one another.

When a person doesn’t get the love they want they become angry. They need to get all that anger out or they’ll end up breaking down somewhere at some random time. I need to get this poison out of me before it ruins me mentally.

zakka





Four Red Roses

6 08 2007

This title is just something I thought of a minute ago (12:56 am). If I ever write a novel, I’ll name it “Four Red Roses” just for fun.





Demonology in Islam and Pashtun Culture

31 07 2007

Here’s what I’ve got so far on Pashtun and Islamic demonology, from various sources. Many of the things mentioned here have actually occurred in front of peoples eyes.

ARWAH: Plural for Ruh, meaning spirits. They are relatively harmless with respect to supernatural abilities. They usually possess people and speak through them etc. Arwahs can be left behind on earth sometimes if they have some sort of unfinished business. Many people are skilled in Arwah exorcisms.

JINN: These guys are the average run-off-the-mill Jinns. They also have the ability to enter our bodies. Some people say that they live in the abdominal area of humans but certain people possess the knowledge to extract them. These Jinns can be caught as they are not immensely powerful and people to use them to perform tasks even though that practice is haram. Jinns have the ability to change their shape. The Prophet said several things about telling snakes to leave 3 times before killing it to ensure that it is not a Jinn. There are of course Muslim and Kafir Jinns. Jinns tend to live in isolated areas such as forests, caves, and mountains. Jinns eat bones and they demand more and more each time they are asked to perform another task.

MAARID: Maarids are also a type of supernatural being in Islam. However, they are not made of fire, they are made of water. Maarids are generally not very harmful but many do not live on the land and reside instead in the ocean, where they are in their natural environment.

DEO: Pashtun mythology is full of stories about Deos. Deos are generally regarded as being Jinn like creature of both incredible magical powers as well as great physical strength. They have been known to be as big as mountains. Deos are generally ugly creatures with bodies that look somewhere between humans and animals. They have very thick ox-like skin and some possess horns. The famous Saif-ul-Muluk is still said to be inhabited by Deos who are there guarding the Shaperay. The most common kind of Deo seen these days is the “Tor Deo”, which is black in colour, has red coal-like eyes, and makes sounds that resemble that of an azhdeha (dragon). If you encounter a “Tor Deo”, read the Ayat-ul-Kursi.

SHAPERAY: Fairies are said to be beautiful winged creatures of varying size. Many a story has been told about fairies kidnapping handsome young men after falling in love with them, and taking them back to their kingdoms. Fairies have little physical strength but they possess supernatural and magical abilities, such as wings for flying.

SHAYTAN: A Shaytan is often a Jinn or other being that has become or turned evil. Shaytans are generally more powerful than all of the previous mentioned beings, however that is uncertain. Shaytans are usually the ones that influence mankind to commit evil deeds, on behalf of their big boss, Iblis.

AFRIT: These are by far the most powerful supernatural beings mentioned in the Quran. An Afrit is mentioned in the Surah where Hazrat Suleiman wants the throne of Balqis brought to him, and the Afrit is beaten only by prayer. A female Afrit is called an Ifritah. Afrits are pure evil by nature. It is said that an Afrit is born at the site of a murder committed in cold-blood. They are made of fire and have enormous wings. Possessing both tremendous physical prowess and magical capabilities, few tasks are beyond them. Afrits generally inhabit secluded places such as large caverns, mountains, or other dark places. Surprisingly, Afrits can also be caught and made to perform tasks. However, an Afrit often lies to its master and even when it completes a task it will complete it such that the master does not fully benefit. Often in Afrit and master relationships, the Afrit becomes the master and the human becomes the slave.





Lodi, California

21 07 2007

Yes! I want to move here within the next few years (as soon as I get my “act” together). Any place that has Urdu as a third language is worth going to lol. My relatives are scattered in LA but me no like LA that much, and San Joaquin has tons and tons of Pakistanis now. So… Lodi is the place to be… de khaira!

http://www.lodi.gov/





Forgotten Dream

16 07 2007

I had another dream a couple of nights ago but I forgot what it was about. What I do remember is that it was also pretty exciting or weird or something unusual. It’s so frustrating when you forget your dreams. They’re so vivid, like watching a movie or something, or I guess more like being in a movie. But then you forget them and you feel like you’ve actually lost something. I’ve heard a couple of people say that you shouldn’t tell anyone your dreams, especially the good ones because they won’t come true. I don’t buy it though. Prophet Joseph was a dream interpretor so obviously people would have told him their dreams too. Forgotten dream, come back to me!








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